nude_Gabriel

The Adventures of Gabriel in Wonkyland
2003-03-06 11:39:39 (UTC)

060303 7.27pm

Stories of my life....

What i want will somehow come round w/o making too much
effort...

The ones i love i'll never get.

Yet i won't be with anyone unless i love.

hmmmm wat does it all means? Something wrong with me? Or
it's just my life?

Heck, or am i just asking for the impossible?

Or am i just holding on to an impossible notion,

What is it i fear?

When i think back of the reasons that made me chosed to walk alone...
I'm afraid, of waking up one day to finally acknowledge that the one
beside is not the one i love, yet by then too late, Or am duty-bound
to stay..

To hold a hand I love, out of companionship than anything else.

To walk down to the end of my life in secret knowledge that I had
never been head over heels crazy in love with the one beside me....

Never either would i want the one i love to be with me out of
gratitude, companionship, or juz becos he knows i love him.
Cos one day he might wake up n regret.

Would the time comes when i'm too beaten to hold on? Love cos he
loves me?
Hoping one day i'll never encounter anyone who might capture my heart
cos that'll probly spark off a domino of regrets?

Bleahhhhh mebbe all these r just wishful thinking,

Mebbe love is not the passion (read passion, Not drama...) that i
thought it is.
Mebbe love is the quiet security of a safe harbour..., knowing that
someone will always be there for u (security...is that love?)
Or is that the sound of defeat?
Or sound of youth?
Or sound of dreams...?

Oh, i dunt know...

Oh man.......................................

i need a shelter from the storm,
i need a cool hand upon the restless heart.

Nevermind, work, work, work.

Bleah, damn.

Hmmmmm how on earth does those career-minded women get thru'?

hmmmm it pays to be less emo isn't it?

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I not that rational in love... Or rather, the emotion's too strong
for me to handle...(mebbe that's y i'm a freakout case)
Yesh, i'm fucking possessive...not that i'd show it all the time.

erm...gives me blardy restless nites tho...

does the way we were brought up cast the greatest impact on how we
are gonna be?

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I STill hate my life, try to juggle a circus act of sorts i might, i
still hate it.
fine.
n i'm stuck with it.
fine.
not gonna end it.
fine.
Wanna change it.
gimme 3 yrs?
pay off the loan, n move out.
i love my family...
but
.
.
.
.
as long as i stay here i'll never be the person i wanna be.
Nid to get out.




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