Citizen Insane

The Life Of A Man Who's Gone Crazy
2003-03-06 06:46:31 (UTC)

A Day Of Realization

Well,i like this for once i can think things through and
shit

first off: i was supposed to go to youth group tonight,i
think its better that i dont go anymore, 2 reasons one
being that most of the people there are like 15 now and im just too
much of a anti-social person

second reason is that ive made too many enemys and there "we hate
andrew hage" shit gets nausiating after awhile last week at the show
at church(yes thats where we play)kristin and rhino and jack come in
after and right away jessie and daniel get the death stare at
us....haha i think its funny cause they know there my friends yet
they seem to think that at church functions and shit none of my
people can be around and when they are right away fuckin jessie will
go all pouty and shit...well ya know what i have friends too whether
any of them will believe or want it...

as for me,i realize that my life well doesnt suck,but definatly has
some bad parts: one im goin on almost 2 years single....that is
really annoying me i mean come on,where the hell am i goin wrong and
why do all the girls that hang all over me and shit have boyfriends?
its not fair i tell ya

another thing: i notice the main reason why i dont go to church
anymore is cause simply its hard to belong to something that doesnt
like you....am i saying that i stopped believing in god or that i
have nothing but enemys there now? no i just noticed that when you be
yourself to them there all i get is the "dan your stupid shutup" look
oh well,i think my time there has come and gone anyway,i remember
back when the kids were there we me
andrew,chill,eddie,eric,chris,andrew hagan,scott netters and justin
and bryan and martin,that was the only place where we would go and
things would be cool,eventually one by one we all left the last being
me,andrew is still there i guess he'll be a preacher one day but i
wonder at what price? speaking of price,i hope i can get to junior
hockey,i gotta make it...i mean so what if im getting a major late
start i gotta get there,i dun care if the wayne wheels and detroit
compuware ambassadors suck,at least ill be there and hoping one day
getting to the NHL and ill be able to prove to all these people that
think im nothing will see that i made it and when i do itll be my
vengence.

well thats it for tonight




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