squeebs

Once again...

I think I'm still reeling from having the blinders pulled
off my face so fast but at least some of the pain has
numbed now and I'm pretty sure for the most part what I am
feeling is anger. I did however find yet another song that
seems to fit my mood. It's by my new obsession, Sum41. And
no, don't take it for the title. I don't actually wish I
were better off dead, I just think some of the lyrics
really make sense. So here goes:
"Over My Head (Better Off Dead)- Sum41 from "Does This
Look Infected":
What happened to you?
You played the victim so long in this game
What I thought was true
is made of fiction and I'm following the same
But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm falling, I'm falling
Now I'm in over my head
with something I said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocricy's beginning to get to me
It's none of my concern
Don't look to me because I don't believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I met your makers, they don't even know your name
If I had to say goodbye to this hell
I'd say time has served me well
I'm falling, I'm falling
Now I'm in over my head with something I've said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see how fake you can be
This hypocricy's beginning to get to me
this came long before
those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare
What's with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one plans for it to blow up in their face
Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Now I'm in over my head with something I've said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocricy's beginning to get to me
Over my head, better off dead
Over my head, better off dead

Yeah so there you go. I guess the part that I really feel
is "And now I see how fake you can be, this hypocricy's
beginning to get to me"- it's the whole blinders being
ripped off thing. And also "I'm too awake for this to be a
nightmare" because this whole thing has been a nightmare
for me that I just keep hoping to wake up from but I know
I won't. Yeah and I like the first first too. The whole
song just makes me think of this situation. Anyhoo...

Current mood: Full of relevations
Current Music: "Over My Head (Better Off Dead)"- Sum41