me

Ignorance is bliss
2003-03-03 14:39:56 (UTC)

god

did i have a mess behind my computer lol my cords were so
messed up it was funny so i took out the cords that were
messed up and i fixed it when i was doing this i found a
necklace that christle got me for christmas but she was
dying to give it to me early when i told her a was a
lesbian it was her way of telling me that it was ok like
she was trying to accept me it is gold (ewwww i hate gold)
and it has a pendent that says follow your dreams with a
rainbow over it i always hated it but today i just wanted
to put it on i am going to tell her that i care about her
but i am following my dreams and i hope she can accept that
because i am leaving no matter what so yeah i just watched
a movie (dragonfly) it was pretty good of course i started
crying because they had a girl who tried to kill herself
and then she started talking about how she felt and i
couldn't handle it because i just wanted to reach out and
give her a hug that always happens to me though lol i am a
niny vincent is so cute i want to take him with me if i
don't christle is going to give him to a shelter humph so i
thin i am going to take him i love him to much to let him
not be with me he has this bag that he likes to lay in and
he attacks it lol he is so funny it is funny i like ot
surprise him and make a loud noise and he jumps like 100 ft
in the air yesterday he was howling at a fly but his lips
were quivering haha ok i think i am done for some reason i
am extremly tired i can barely type and look at the screen
maybe i will take a nap maybe not who cares i just can't
sleep i think i will write in my diary get some feelings
out so that i can relax oh wait no i won't i have to much
to worry about how could that have slipped my mind i need
to get shit done TODAY and of course i woke up at 5 today
felicia and i had north burgers for breakfast and she got
me a donghnut for lunch i am going ot eat the rest of her
sandwich from last night pretty soon i will be able to
decorate my own house yeah not that we have much but that
is the best part saving your money and buying everything
and knowing that it "ours" i am still trying to think of
what we want to do with the extra room because i want
felicia and i to have our own rooms but we will have one
extra one we are going ot sleep in the same bed i just want
us to have our own space when we need it maybe we could use
it as a computer room we aren't goign ot hve much stuff in
the begininng like i want a new mattress for her bed for
certain reason i don't know if i will be able to sleep on
it ugh and i want a couch because i want my futon back ok i
am done off to write my thoughts down




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