Dr Cats

today is the greatest day
2003-03-03 14:00:08 (UTC)

what could have been a borken heart

I'm glad that my heart is not broken. I'm glad that I still
feel the same for her. I'm glad that we can both be happy
when we are apart, and that we're not dependant on
eachother. i'm gald that she is so beautiful. Last night I
talked to Gab and sorted a lot of stuff out. It was very
good. Hmmm. I hate it when my mind gets in the way of my
heart, but that's life. I was trying to reason things last
night to myself and it was all clashy. Oh well it's all
good now, talking things over is always a really good thing
to do, it's cool to not be proud and to say sorry when
you've hurt and been hurt. It shows chracter and it also
shows love for others over yourself I reccon. Today was a
nice day for me. I wrote my first ever Universtiy essay. It
was on the boundaries of dramatic forms for Theatre
Studies. I think it's a winner. But let's not get too
hopeful. heheh. Drama was cool today a lot of fun. I stayed
back and studied for ages after. It felt very good. Today I
fasted for the war. I've been told many times that it's
supposed to make you feel closer to your spirit. It just
made me feel hungry. haha! Oh well everybodie's different
and I spose some people probably do feel very spiritual for
it. I ran into Fuzzy todays! He's second year in my course,
and he's got a job on the radio. He told me some tips for
getting in with agents and stuff.. He's a good guy, always
has been very good to me that boy. We usta be pretty good
mates when I was in grade 11, he was in grade 12 then,
School Captain. He's quite a funny guy really, dresses
kinda like a pansy though.. haha! I am tired right now..
very sleepy indeed.. me and Lara (my friend from mackay)are
talking about relationships. I will tire from this all very
soon and will go to sleep.. for now goodnight. Do you want
some lyrics? sure you do!!!

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Thirty Three

speak to me in a language i can hear
humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you

(Billy Corgan, Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness,
1995)

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Those are like some of my favourite Smashing Pumpkins
lyrics. Very Beautiful! Oh yeah I wrote Jewel's a song
today. It's cool. I thought it was anyway, so did she.
anyways.. bye for now!