caulfield

Exit from Reality
2003-03-03 07:00:03 (UTC)

cloud 9 for me and my girl

So Lochness has a boyfriend! It's about fucking time some
guy cashed in on such an incredibly special person. I'm
sorry but what were some guys thinking-they past her up,
and treated her like shit, so it's their loss. Kyle, you
got quite a steal!

Schulz and I had a fun night, enough said.

God it was great seeing Emily, I love that girl so much. I
think a certain senior who works with her should really
take her to prom, haha (wink wink).

I had an epiphony. I'm over Ted, and actually happy for
the kid. He loves a great girl. From what I can see, Kelly
seems to be very sweet and quite a cutie. So I think I'm
finally past my Ted phase. I really do wish we could have
been friends though. I don't meet a lot of guys who
actually love books, and can sing Radiohead better than
Thom Yorke (haha).

Having a weekend full of just sleeping was kind of dry and
not memorable, but oh well, at least I got some bonding
time with the parentals.

Stevie is mad at me again. I'm sure no one even knows
who "Stevie" really is. He's my old boyfriend, and I guess
my previous entry pissed him off; my bad. I don't
understand him. He told me he loved me last night,
probably not something I should have anounced to everyone,
but hey this is a journal. But why would he say that out
of no where? Love is an interesting word, possibly a 4
letter lie, but in this case, it's more honest. I did love
him, only kid I ever said that to, but I gave him all of
me, and it didn't really work out, so we've both been
fucked up ever since.

FOR FUN: So if guys want a hint on what girls, or more
specifically what Jodi likes, here ya go... I'm a fan of
guy's touching the face, play with my hair, put it behind
my ears, grab the cheeks while kissing me. Also, got to
love a guy who appreciates your ass, haha. I'm an
agressive person you might say, but as much as I love to
just straddle a guy, I also love to be touched everywhere,
gently. Kiss my lower back, my tummy, my kneck, my ears,
my forhead, my nose... and anywhere else I might like
(haha). Tickle my back and arms, because it gives those
lil chills that make me desire ya more. Well that's all
the hints for tonight...hopefully that didn't freak anyone
out, I just thought you might want to hear what a girl
wants (lol).

I think people assume I lie to them when I say, "I am
busy." Does no one understand that I am honestly always on
the go, always with someone. I feel horrible telling the
same people that "I can't, I got plans," but I'm just being
truthful. Everyone knows, I want to see Loch as much as
humanly possible, Ryan requires to see me, plus the family
including Trav, Beth and Beau, and the parentals all want
to have some private time, than there's church, and
basketball...so I seriously don't have time. And when I am
actually enjoying myself, I can't just make it stop to
prolong the memory, instead it passes me by in a second,
and I'm on to the next thing, it kills me. Why even have
time? It just foces people to have a horrible day like in
Office Space (classic) or to not enjoy the actual good
times because they're consumed in what needs to be done.
Oye, maybe that didn't make sense, but I'm just sick of
looking at the damn clock in the corner of the screen.

So my friend R Cory (r cory instead of r kelly, the
petofiler-haha), wants me to kiss him. He's a guy in my
religion, who is 19, and has never kissed a girl. I'm
afraid to help this poor soul, because a kiss can mean a
lot to a person. I don't want to lead him on, but I
honestly feel bad for the guy. Wouldn't you want a kiss if
you were 19 and still hadn't experienced something so
wonderful? I realize some people don't know how to kiss,
or they get incredibly shy and very scared. Kissing is
natural, and people really just need to enjoy it. Gotta
love kissing:)

So I've rambeled way long enough, I'm sorry, I think it's
time I get back to my book, night folks.

3/2
Musical selection: Avril 14th and Flim by APHEX TWIN

Hotties
-Chad (holy shit)
-Schulz
-Ted (probably should take off the list soon)




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