laviedujour

Diary RSH
2003-03-02 23:24:46 (UTC)

for a good day, there is a bad one

*sigh* Well, it hasn't been the best day. I would think
that after all these years I would learned that high hope
can be take away easy. Like, things were looking
exceptionaly great. mom was happy, she had a rich
boyfriend, and things were going great. So great that it
was highly likely and hopeful that in a few years money
would never be a problem.

We were wrong. Everythign isn't all clear yet, but Mom's
boyfriends did or has had or is having an affiar. She
ummm, walked in on them. Norm was supposed to come down
last night, mom kept on calling but no answer, so she drove
all the way down to his place to find that.

Well, what goes around comes around, Mom did leave Kevin
for Norm. She thought it was a bright move. We all did,
Norm was nice, he had money. No Mom's minus two. back to
no hopeful outlook. Back to having and will never have
nothing. I hate this so much. Even when Mom was with
Kevin there was a futre, they had plans to sell the house
and all, but now there's nothing. No money, no future.

Mom has a tumor too, in her uterus. Just more caner added
to what she already has. She had a tumor in the same place
soon after she had me, so it's not fatal, but it's addign
stress to her. i was really looking forward to Mom having
a long lasting relationship with Norm. things seemed to be
going perfectly.

You may not understand completly. it's just that Mom lost
out big time. She lost her husband for a boyfriend which in
the end was worth nothing, and that happenned it wiped away
all hopes. Mom can't run this house by herself. Her
income is too small. What hapenns now? that's the
question, and that's what i'm afriad of. I just had so
much hope, I was getting along better with Mom, I believed
that it would all work out.

everything always messes up




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