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2003-02-28 23:42:22 (UTC)

The First Day of This Evil Book

Well, last night, Josh and I had our first fight. It
wasn't much of a fight really though. He wants Dominic's
number. I said, "No." He got pissed and asked, "Why?" I
told him that I love Dominic. No matter how hard I try, I
can't seem to get him off my mind. Even when I hated him,
I loved him if that makes any sense. Dominic has this
serious problem with his "private secrets" getting out to
anyone. I don't understand it. I mean he is bi, and he
should accept himself. It is his prerrogative though. But
anyways, when I talk about him with anyone, good or bad
talking, he gets pissed. If I gave out his number, he
would be so mad. Some may ask why I am still trying with
this guy. They just don't understand how I feal. Maybe it
is just infatuation though. I am 15; who falls in love at
15? I just have deep fealings for him.
I want a real relationship. Lately, it has been all I have
thought about wanting. I want someone to call mine.
Someone who loves me, cares for me, and wants to be with
me as much as I want to be with him. I am probably coming
across as needy or even clingy, but I am not. I just am
tired of these dead end relationships. I want something
real. When I find one that will provide for me that, it
will take the jaws of life to pull him out of my life. Oh
well . . . tomorrow this won't even matter to me. Until
later . . .




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