Mindy aka Cutie

The life of a suicidal Teenager.
2003-02-28 17:22:42 (UTC)

Kissing and telling

Firstly, I would like to make it knonw that negative
responses to my jounal will only make my situation worse
off. Thanks for your concern but if your going to be an
ass...look at your own life and tell me that it's not any
worse than mine.

Alright------down to the kissing and telling section for
Dear Journal,
wait, have I ever started off like that? Never mind...
Dear Journal,
Yesterday was really really weird. Jon acted like we
were still together, holding my hand, kissing me on the
check, you know...the norm. But, after school I met Tim.
I asked if I got my birthday present now. He sais of
course. He gave me this great big hug and kissed my neck
while he was hugging me. I liked it ALOT. Then he just
kinda left...(shy as hell) So, I went up to him grabbed his
neck and kissed him as hard as I could on his lips. NO
SPARKS. I guess there could have been if I wanted but, I
just didn't feel chemistry. Then on the bus there is this
gothic guy named Josh. He has had a girlfriend for a year
but he like lunged at me and forced me to kiss him. It
wasn't what I wanted.....I really wanted Tim to kiss me. I
got some expert advice from one of my best pals Matt(who I
met on the internet) He said to give Jon another chance and
make it well known that if he screws up again it's totally
totally over and I will never come back. I decided to
listen to him. I trust Matt more than anyone right now.
Maybe because he's older and wiser....or maybe I just need
to try something other than what I would usually do. So,
me and Jon are back together....I know alot of you (56
responses) don't want that...but hey, life's worth
trying..I guess. Oh btw...


Not really happy just another miserable mark on the
timeline. Hope to write you about something worth reading
in the next couple of days.

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