blueswede

The Nine Faces of Dave
2003-02-28 08:12:54 (UTC)

and one beacon of hope still shines

So I'm finally getting around to updating this thing, as for
the first time in many days, I don't have any coursework due
in the next couple of days. And believe me, a whole lot has
changed since I last updated.

Right now my life is filled with schoolwork and Dance Dance
Revolution, but everything will be pretty much done in one
week, so I'm feeling all right. And then, I'll be on spring
break. I decided a couple of weeks ago to go home for break
after all; I don't like my job enough to stay here to work,
I won't have any projects to work on during that time, and
I'd probably get really bored with no one around. But more
importantly, I have extra motivation to be home now.

I finally got up the courage (not Dutch courage) to call up
a friend of mine from high school and try to figure out why
we'd had no contact since last June. We had gone out once
(yes, a grand total of one time), and I thought she may have
been angry with me about something, so I was afraid to call
her up. Fear of rejection is a motherfucker.

So I called her up, and amazingly enough, she was actually
glad to hear from me. We talked for a while, though the bad
reception on my cell phone and the echo from the stairwell
made it difficult. As it turns out, our breaks will overlap
by one day, and so we made plans to go out to dinner on that
night. Needless to say, I was extremely happy.

Much as I'm content to just be friends, some rebellious part
of my mind still hopes for more. I suppose at this point,
pretty much anything is possible. I got the impression that
she wasn't seeing anyone, and I'm not either, so everything
could work out extremely well.

So despite all the misery caused by excessive work, class,
and tests, I'm feeling pretty good right now. I've actually
managed to fall asleep the past few nights without the awful
feeling of failure I've been suffering from for so long.

I've been filling my free time playing DDR, in a most likely
vain hope of dropping a few pounds before I leave in a week
for spring break. Might as well make the best impression I
can, or so I figure. Only problem is the cost; at 50 cents
a play, this is probably the most expensive workout I could
be getting, especially considering that the athletic center
is available and free of extra cost. But then again, DDR is
a whole lot of fun, and you don't have a bunch of musclehead
types around to make you feel self-conscious.

In summary: I have far too much work to do, especially for
computer science, I have exams that I'm dreading, I've been
spending way too much money on Dance Dance Revolution, and
by the end of spring break, my life may finally be starting
to come together.

It's interesting how the day of spring break that I'm most
looking forward to happens to be the last.

This is Dave, signing off.




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