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Katie's Journal
2003-02-27 04:59:46 (UTC)

Losing My Mind

I'm starting to understand what Josh was talking about
last semester when he said he felt like he wasn't in
control of his life anymore. There are just so many
things that I wish I could change that I just can't.
There's Frankie, Josh, Midterms, working (or not working,
I guess), not having money, feeling like an adult and
being treated like a kid, being treated like an adult and
feeling like a kid, wanting more freedom without more
responsibilty, not being able to be in a relationship with
a person I can't live without, thinking that I might have
found that person and not being able to do anything about
it...And the list goes on.

I want to go to bed tonight and wake up with all my
studying done, all the work done that I haven't gotten
around to, my work schedule with Dr. Fowler worked out, my
parents understanding me, and with a voicemail from Josh
saying that he's realized I'm the one he wants, he can't
live without me, and he'll be waitng for me in my room
when I get back from taking my midterm. (I would wish
that I'd wake up tomorrow and he'd be there in my bed with
me, but I don't think I'd ever make it to class. hehehe)

So that's what I'm feeling right now. And I'm spending so
much time studying for an exam in a class that I shouldn't
even have to take. I'm a Communication Major! Why am I
in an acting class?!? I think non-majors should be exempt
from all midterms and finals in non-gen ed classes. Kinda
like auditing a class, you know? I'm a genius!

Ok, I really do need to get back to studying now

*Katie*




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