Glendochka's New Bubble
what have i gotten myself into again?
i ruined whatever friendship i had with alex with my
stupidity. i shouldve just told him what ive been thinkin
instead of tellin him to read my diary. why the hell did i
even do that in the first place?!
ive been such a mess this whole week. i havent been able to
get him off my mind. i bombed a test cus i couldnt
concentrate on what i was doing. we've already talked, but
we're still not completely ok. i know he's still mad at me.
i want it to go back to how it was. i want ... i dunno what
i want. i just want to be happy again.
...oh my god...
why did i just realize this now? how dumb am i?!
i need alex.
i need him in order for me to be happy.
i need his comforting words.
i need our little talks.
....i need him....
i just hope there was some way of telling him that. i dont
think he'll believe me though if i tell him now.
im goin crazy. i cant handle this, not now.
*im not gonna cut ... im not gonna cut ... im not gonna
cut ... im not gonna cut ... im not gonna cut ... im not
gonna cut ... im not gonna cut ... im not gonna cut ... im
not gonna cut*