RoseEssense

I don't understand

There are days that I feel like nothing could be better,
and then there are days that I feel like it should be that
way, but there's just something missing.
I went to see Justin tonight, and something just didn't
feel right. And I know he sensed it too, because he kept
reassuring me that he loved me. It's just, usually he's
jumping at the chance to kiss me or touch me, but tonight,
he like totally shuned from it. I just don't understand.
Was I doing something wrong? Did he just not want to touch
me or what? He probably just didn't want to get himself all
worked up, and then not be able to do anything about it,
but still, he could've at least kissed me. I like the rush
and excitement I get when I kiss him and touch him, even if
it means just that. Sometimes it just makes those yearnings
stronger, and make it feel so much better.
Anyways, I don't know why I'm talking about all of this.
And I probably shouldn't. Plus, I'm really tired, so I
think I'm gonna go to bed. It's already almost 4. G'Nite to
all.
Shelby