what happened?
2001-10-01 23:48:25 (UTC)

What a Day!

I cried today infront of my boyfriend. I almost regret
doing it, but it turned out alright. I cried because I was
spoiled and I cried because it feels almost beautiful to
cry. I think a person really becomes beautiful when they
cry. My boyfriend kissed my tears away (literally he
kissed my tears away). I love crying infront of him
because I know he would kiss my tears away. I love him
very much and don't get me wrong I don't cry all the time.
I just cried today because I was angry that I don't have
the priviledge of spending time with him all the time, but
his friends has access to him anytime. Isn't that a
selfish thing? I just don't think it's fair that if I
can't reach him then no one has that right to reach him. I
know it's a bad trait, but that's how I am. I'm spoiled
and pampered and he makes me worse. I just love him, I
just want him, and I want him to be next to me all the
time. I feel so bad, but I can't do anything about it
except just be far away and act so distant. I have a
swollen head, I'm too arrogant. I should tone down a bit.
I just have one thing to say and that is no matter what
happens I love him and I love him dearly.


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