Jade

JadedSnowflake
2001-02-28 06:08:00 (UTC)

2/29/01 12:51am Well sitting..

2/29/01 12:51am

Well sitting here infront of the comp, thinking to myself
why aren't you in bed,,,,, I dont seem to be able to sleep
when ever one else can sleep....

I have something with sunlight i hate it i rather be
sleeping then,,Iam scared that the sunlight will let
everyone see me,,,,,,Iam like a mouse running from a mouse
trap when it comes to the sunlight,. I run and hide and
hope no one can see me in the corner watching the clock . I
sit there and with rushing hope for night time to come so i
can be alive ,, be myself run ,scream,jump.Be myself and do
things with out people judgement.

I love the hours from midnight to five cause its so
peaceful and quite and dark.... I dont have to worrie about
hiding from what I like to do. Cause the sunlight loving
people are sleeping. When five am comes and around the sky
starts to lighten . i think to myself as I look in the
night sky for 5 hours i got to be myself ,,,,,,, I sit and
think to myself why do I keep myself away from the world. I
start building myself up saying Screw it tomorrow Iam going
to do this and do that,and when that tomorrow comes . I end
up to the same damn thing.

So I guess in all........I should take my time at noon and
think well Iam going to do this and do that ,Say Screw it
if people dont like it!
::: " GUESS IAM TRYING TO SAY IAM LIKE A VAMPIRE TO PEOPLE
CAUSE I RUN AND HIDE FROM THEM AND NOT LET THEM SEE
ME....RUN CARE FREE DO MY THING AND WHEN THE COME TO ME AND
SAY SOMETHING . TURN TO THEM AND SAY SCREW YOU WHO DIED AND
LEFT YOU IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE.....IF I SIT IN THE CORNER
AND HIDE ...DONT LET PEOPLE SEE ME GUESS IAM LETTING BE IN
CHARGE CAUSE THEY ARE THE ONES KEEPING ME IN THIS
CORNER !!!"IT JUST CAME TO ME WHAT IAM....................
IAM A PERSON WAITING TO BE SEEN IN THE SUNLIGHT




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