Helplessly_Lost

Life Sucks worse then a $2 whore in ChinaTown.

Life sucks! Yes it does! My mother has just told me she is
PREGNANT for the....8th time! She has 8 kids. My youngest
brothers are twins. So if your bad at math there's the
answer that might have confused you.

I have been having a rough couple of days these past few
ones.

I've managed to lie to a great friend, although I didn't
mean to! I have this thing where I can't lie!

It hurts me too. I did it once before this and it tore me to
pieces!

I didn't mean to lie. I was just SO nervous of him being
upset and mad at me for getting back with my ex.

My stomach hurts. That's how upset I get over things. I love
him to pieces and I would NEVER do that to anyone.

I'm wrighting right before I am SUPPOSED to go to school. I
hate school! I'm still devestated over the Sept.11th act,
but I've leanred to coop. Keeping things to myself really
does work.

Last night I was told I would never amount to ANYTHING by a
lovely friend of mine. Makes you wonderer if they're telling
the truth.

I'm TRYING to make something of myself. I go to NYU and I
might switch my major, if your allwoed to. Oh hell I don't
know if you can or can't. But I'll try. I guess I'm bad as a
dancer. He told me the other night after I had a dance
recital/pratice.

So maybe I should give it up. Perhaps others are saying I'm
good becuase I'm not and they don't want to hurt my
feelings.

*sigh*

Oh and it's lovely to wake up and find out that the ONLY
cereal you eat...aka Fruity Pebbles is all gone! My mother
bought it Saturday morning! I think they all like eating the
cereal marked LIZZIES!

It was MY cereal that I handed my mom money for!

*growls*

Another mouth to feed is the way I look at the next brat
comming into this family.

If I even decided to eat, which I am currently NOT doing.
I get seriously depressed and then resort to no food. Which in a way puts me in a BETTER mood since I'm losing weight.

Oh and I get to see my bf today. Oh joy of joys! *sigh* I love seeing him, but I hate hearing him.

Why can't men stay silent ?

You'd think she would know better after having 7
assholes....( that doesn't count me becuase I'm her lil
princess! ^_^ *lol* )...She wouldn't want another!

Ok let me get off this topic before I get even more pissed.

School starts in 45 mins and it takes me an hour to get
there, so I'm thinking I'll be a bit late.

So maybe I'll go and maybe I won't. All I know is I LOVE
dancing. Ever since I could move my feet my mom said.

So maybe I just lost whatever talent I had, or really
THOUGHT I had.

Well that's all for now.

Current Mood- Mad

Current Color-Black

Current Song- 'Break me, Shake me.'~Savage Garden

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