2/27/01 8:23:am I awaken with..
I awaken with same damn feeling again today.why can I get
these people out of my head... I dont understand it cause I
have "HATE" for these people. but still wish in away they
were in my life once again. but I say to myself do you want
to be control again..Having someone tell you when to
sleep,when to talk and who to talk with......
Iam adult no one should control me ,,,,,,I should control
myself.. As I laid in bed and thought about this I came to
this why I didnt relize i was being control is cause ,they
made you feel safe,loved,cared for and one of the special
people in the group,,,,,,,then I said Hell no they are mean
and they use me to make them selves look better.. Get you
ass out of bed and move on ,,,,,,,Cause if you lay here and
think about them you are still letting them control you!!!
I'am not going to let them win........IAM STRONG..
"PEOPLE WHO CONTROL OTHER CAN CAUSE THEY HAVE NO CONTROL OF
THERE OWN LIFE....... THEY THINK BY CONTROLING OTHER THEY
WILL GET A HANDLE ON THERE ON LIFE! "
" ONLY REASON PEOPLE DO MEAN THINGS TO OTHER IS TO MAKE
THERE LIFE LOOK BETTER THAN EVERYONE ONE ELSE. WHEN THEY
HAVE THE SAME SHITTY LIFE AS ALL OF US DO! "