*MS JLYN*

*ALL CRIED OUT OVER U*
2001-09-30 19:13:32 (UTC)

THE LAST DAY OF SEPT.........

Well, I do have a story to tell! Last nite was messed up as
far as the party goes. Okay, I just should have driven the
Honda instead of riding with someone else. The party was
lame to death. Dee couldn't bring me home, so Sergio had to
bring me home. Sergio is this boy who likes me. I haven't
really talked about him because he isn't anything special
to me. He's a sweet guy and he is certainly deep, but he's
just not for me. I don't down people if they don't go to
college because I know college isn't for everyone....but I
don't know. I want someone who is educated.....street-wise,
booksmart, and common sense. I want all three...ya know.
But anyway, he drove me home. Then when I got home, my
brother told me that Leroy called me. So, I called him back
and just so happens....he was in the Ville! :) Well, he
came and saw me. We stayed outside and it was cold. We
hugged each other and kissed here and there. It was nice.
He came at about 2-something and left at about five minutes
till five. I don't know. I was really cold, but I didn't
want him to leave. It's just something about being in his
arms and listening to him talk. It's so.....perfect. I know
I always go on and on about how I'm going to tell him how I
feel and stuff, but I didn't do it last nite. I don't want
to push him away. I mean, we have something there
obviously, but I would like to know what it is to
him....but I don't want to risk asking him that because it
could push him away. It was in the plans for us to get
together before he left, but that isn't going to happen.
Yeah, this is going to sound very GAY....I cried when he
called me and told me that I would just have to see him
when he comes for homecoming. I'm crazy. Honestly, I don't
think I'll ever tell him how I really feel. I've never been
good with that kind of stuff and even if my future depended
on it...I still probably wouldn't do it. That's only my
fault. Hey, maybe I need to be drunk.....lol. Well, I'm
about to bail out and go pick up some things for Homecoming
week, which starts tomorrow!!!!!!!! I'm very excited! *J*




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