Dick Doomsday

Pathetic Punk
2003-02-26 09:01:44 (UTC)

drama queen

well tonight i went to a play with Mark. Man, i miss
acting. im thinking about getting into it again.

blah...anywho, me and mark chilled today. he came over to
smoke and went home and we talked on the phone and what not
then he comes to pick me up and yeah.

then we go to horton plaza and see a really great play.
that weird dude from my ChicStudies class ended up sitting
next to me. hes strange. i saw him before we walked down
the stairs and he said hi and i was like "oh great." then
the fucker ends up sitting next to me! out of all the
tickets my teacher bought for the class, out of all those
tickets, he gets the one next to mine!!! ahh. so then he
was being an ass during the play. making rude comments and
then he was trying to cop a feel or something. he would
reach in his pocket and i could feel his hand rubbing my
leg through his pants and ewwwww!

strange. so then after intermission i try and switch seats
with mark but it didnt work out and i ended up sitting next
to him again. and ewwww.

so yeah. afterwards we go to Becky's moms house cuz its the
six month anniversary since she died and yeah. i met her
brother Chris. hes a cool kid. totally reminds me of my
brother Tony. a fuckin splitting image. but Chris is older.
anyways...mark was in the room talking to Peggy (Beckys
mom) and i was in Chris's room talking to him. He's cool
and everything but he lacking something. I guess like a
role model or something. i would really like to talk to
that kid. i wouldnt like to see him go off in the wrong
dirrection. i dunno. i got a feeling from him like he's
screaming for help but no one hears him.

and no i'm not crazy.

so yeah. i just got home a little while ago. im pretty
tired. im ready to sleep.

man...i really love Mark lots. he is truely my best friend.
and wow. i dunno what i would do without him. i've lost so
many friends so far and i dont know what i would do if i
lost him. i would be devestated. to tell you the truth, i
would probably kill myself if he died. anyways...i dont
wanna think about it.

so yeah. today i talked to Eve. she told me she was jealous
of my friends. and how she wants to be able to have guy
friends like the ones i have. i dunno what it is about me.
i mean, i'm a tomboy but so is she but uhh..i guess its cuz
i'm more outgoing and dont really give a fuck what people
think about me. i noticed she cares too much about how
people see her. so she tones down her personality and ends
up just being a wallflower. she needs some ZEST! yes! thats
right. thats what she needs. Some ZEST! she can have some
of mine. sometimes i think i have too much. ;-)

i love my friends soooooo fucking much. especially the ones
i have now. they are my family now. john, will, joe, and
josh are my brothers. i'll love them all forever. michelle
is the other girl of the group. its nice having her around.
so its not such a fucking cock fest all the time.

but joe. i love joe. i love being able to talk to him about
stuff. he's my new rock. him and michelle. i guess they
work as a team. joes has managed to gain my trust (which
isnt an easy task).

and josh, josh is my reassurance. josh was my fallback guy
when john and i had our falling out. i love him super lots.
if he wasnt such a good friend i would probably be trying
to fuck the guy. haha. man i love josh. hes the oldest cat
in the crew. and man he can make a fire like no ones
business.

will is my happy pill. when i'm down he brings me back up.
when i'm up, he, um, brings me down? haha. i love will. i
guess its cuz he so damn tall. he's my tree and when i hug
him i can be a tree hugger. william is my big little
brother. i love him more then any of the other guys. i
guess i have to cuz hes taller then the rest.

and on to john. john make me miserable sometimes. but other
times he makes me so fucking happy. makes life worth
living. but then theres the times where he make me wanna
kill myself. i still love john lots though. and even though
i know he doesnt love me, i'll always love him more then
anything.

anyways...im done now. haha. johns online.




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