PsychoSirus

Inner thoughts of sadness
2003-02-25 23:53:29 (UTC)

Experiment

I forgot to mention my little experiment. ANYONE WHO KNOWS
WHO THEY ARE MAY NOT WANNA READ ITS NOTHING BAD BUT I AM
MAKIN A LITTLE NOT JUST INCASE I wanted to see if I still
felt "something" when I did something with someone. Im
being so blatent with what Im talkin about. Well heres what
it was. I wanted to see if I still felt a certain way. Two
posibilites were *yes, and then I'd go back into a
depressed like state, or *No and we would be great friends
still. Well appearntly there was a third unforseen choice.
Yes I still feel a certain way but it hasnt affected me and
So I still just wanna be great friends. Yay. I suppose this
is what you call gettin over someone, Ive never had that
before. But is it getting over someone when you still feel
the tingling and the butterflies? Who cares. I like where
Im at and oddly enough Im happy. I am wicked happy for
Potter And Peach (Where did that name originate HUH???)
Because they are happy. I still dont think there will be
another which kinda sux. Meh. What the experiment was was,
I used to put my hand through her hair, scalp massage? And
I would get major butterflies, well I got them within
seconds so I had to stop. But its appearant that the
feelings are still there. Makes me smile. Meh I obviosly
dont wanna wreck our friendship, Potter's too. So I'll
ignore the feelings. No biggie. Hold up havin trouble
breathin.
Anyways, appearently I have devloped a cough. I think its
more psychological than anything, I only get it when Im
with friends, which is weird. It actually reminds me of a
Drew Carry Show episode. Where Drew gets in pain when he
touches Kate. Hmmmmmm well hopefully it goes away. and now
I will part. peace


~~Sirus




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