Mims

The life of Mims
2003-02-25 18:18:08 (UTC)

So....

exams are done.
What an anti-climax.
I suppose it's been a relaxing anti-climax none the less. I
just wish I could do all the regular things want to do,
like go into Llantwit, spend some time in the pub with my
friends.
But I have just been lazing around the house, watching
movies, sleeping, reading.....Iknow I shouldn't because
it's fairly anti social. But not all of my friends have
finished exams yet, the first years still have codes...
I suppose I am just bored.

I've been keeping up with my running since the 10k, but
today for the first time I really hurt myself whilst doing
it.
I fell over right in front of the main gate of the college.
It was really clumsily horrible, the first time I have done
something so stupid in a while. One of those prolonged
agonising moments when everything seems to pass in slow
motion, and you hear your bones crunching along the gravel
so much more clearly than you at first feel the pain. My
first thought was 'oh goodness, how annoying' but then the
blood started to pour over my open skin, and gush down in
rivers onto my white socks, and I was left immobile by the
side of the road wondering what to do. A car passed me, and
the driver didn't stop to help, even though he saw me fall
and lie motionless by the side of the road.
Things like that really don't help to improve my faith in
human nature.
I got back into the house, and remember thinking how hot
the blood was on my legs, as my roomate led me into the
bathroom to lie down.
I hate the feeling of faintness and shock that accompanies
accidents.
You feel so aware of your heart beating, the clammy, sick
feeling creeping over skin that somehow doesn't look like
yours, and the drunken spinning of your head.
I suppose it was just the sight of my own blood, and the
fact that I lost a lot that made me feel so wretched.
I didn't mean to put Kate through the fright of seeing me
like that.
She was an angel, knowing just what to do.
But I think she's worried about me, for various reasons.
I don't want her to be.
I hate that sort of attention.

Love M




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