Austin

Ramblings Of a 18 y/o Fag
2003-02-25 06:41:17 (UTC)

Unhealthy Wishes

I wasn't planning on writing an entry tonight, but I had to
bitch for a moment(like I do anything else).

I was skimming through other gay peoples diaries, looking
for people who have web pages. What the hell?!? Am I the
only gay man in america who doesn't have the body of a
heroin addict? I don't think of myself as overweight(most
of the time), but what is it with gay men being six feet
tall and weighing 110LBS? Even if I didn't eat for the
next six months, I still couldn't look like that. Damn my
normally proportioned skeleton! But seriously, if I looked
like that, I would be so much more happy. I know, and have
said before, that the grass is always greener on the other
side, but I just want to look cute in a tight black turtle
neck.

Well, now that I have that off my chest... I don't feel any
better. Maybe I should actually take up doing herion.
Then again, I'd rather be a regular-sized person that lives
past twenty-two.

Speaking of unhealthy, Lauren and I are going to get diet
pills tomarrow. Preferably the ones that all those people
died taking. If they kill you, they must be doing some
serious calorie burning. Is sixty pounds an unreasonable
weight loss goal? I would be five foot ten, and weigh
140. It could work. I weighed 160 at prom last year, and
I looked amazing. The extra twenty pounds would be all in
my stomach, theighs, and chest. that would be about 7
inches off my waist. If I didn't eat cheese cake and pizza
as my two main dietary staples, it would be muck easier to
achieve this. That's it! Vegan diet starting tomarrow.
I've been meaning to do it again, but I haven't had the
will power. But since it's in writing, I suppose I'm
accountable to myself and you. Wish me luck.

Well the computer's been on for more than ten minutes, so I
better submit this before my luck runs out.




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