Dragon

Quintessence
2003-02-25 03:31:01 (UTC)

Life sucks

It's ten:300 and i just got home from my fucking musical
practice that started at five thirty. I hate the vocal
department at my school, every single person involved is
corrupt and evil.... they must be plotting against us
all... any way. I love the soundtrack to vanilla sky. That
was random. You know my girlfriend took this test that i
made about all the hopes and dreams i hae and things i
want to do with my life... she got less than 40 percent on
it... she doesn't listen and pretends to care. I took the
test that she made about herself and i scored an 80
because a third of them say the same exact thing and you
have to guess randomly the right answer. I don't even like
her as more than a friend and i listen to her and she
pretends that she loves me. I spent all five hours of
preactice for the musical spacing out and thinking about
my romantic situation and decided the best thing to do
would be to make a list of all the people that like me and
why i should date each one and what their best qualities
are... Here it goes

My girlfriend
1 doesn't listen, but claims to "care"
2 she's funny sometimes and laughs at my jokes
3 she fills me up with a false sense of meaningsness which
makes me feel good for ten minutes
4 she pretends to be someone that she's not and has
created a stereotypical character for herself which i
absolutly hate

College Girl
1 lives near me
2 nice and has a great attitude that is contageous
3 she totally is into the arts and into me
4 she has a sense of truth about her like she isn't
putting on a false act, which i like

Random Girl I met Online
1 doesn't judge people
2 she seems to be nice
3 is dealing with a lot of shit that she just dumps on me
to solve ( not a good thing with me)
4 i have never seen her

Guy J
1 he is extremly hot and anything i could wish for in that
aspect
2 he likes me, honestly, and treats me good
3 he has a lot of shit going on that he talks about but
doesn't look to me to solve and listens to me as well
4 i want to go to college with him and i can see him and i
doing querky relationship stuff even in public (an open
relationship is a must with me)
5 he's sooooooooo great

hmmmmmmmmmmmm.... that'sa tough choice. I think i should
dump my girlfriend, who is really just a friend, and I
don't want to hurt her in doing it mind you... anyway. The
next thing i should do is skip the next 3 years of my life
and be living with J somewhere away from both of our
families in some college and live happily ever after in a
perfect world. While i know none of my plan is ever going
to happen and is not possible at all... I can still dream
it can't I. I'm thinking i should just give up this stupid
act that i am living (yes i put on an act even when i hate
other people doing it) so i am going to do homework and
try and get to bed before 2 and wake up at 6 and start
this stupid act all over again. Where is J in my dreams
when i need him most??? Well i've only had one dream with
him in it... but anyway, he's not online either, so i am
goin now.... drop me a message y'all, talk later

...That's all for now...




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