Infiniterocker

hello kitty cat
2003-02-24 02:31:28 (UTC)

as they're dragging me away...i swear i saw them raise their hand and wave (goodbye)

Stephanie called me this morning...her and her boyfriend
want to live in separate places, so I now have a GIRL
roommate to move out with ...which is nice..cause now I
can escape living w/Christian...lol....it sucks that just
because I won't sleep w/him he gives me hell...Tommy is
fucking cool though....well I guess I could stay in touch
w/him. It doesn't really matter. You know lately I feel
incredible..or like complete shit. No inbetween. I think
things will turn around when I move in with Stephanie. I
need to stop putting myself in shitty situations..and I
need to stop being so naive...in thinking people give a
flying fuck..because they don't. I realize that now. It's
so funny..I'm still listening to The
Pumpkins...MCIS....and I remember being in
Chicago..listening to this and looking out the window..at
ogdan street...and watching the cars go by..or looking at
the restaraunt across the street....it's so
strange...everything was so simple back then....I feel
like that was a lifetime ago...I remember when Danny used
to throw rocks at my window at like 1am....and I'd sneak
out and hed' have a picnic waiting for me on the
patio...with candles..and I thought that was the coolest
thing ever...I really had nothing to worry about. I just
wish I would have lived in the moment a little bit more
back then. But I'm done complaining for the moment...I'll
post some more lyrics....because Billy Corgan is an
AMAZING writer...
thru the eyes of ruby

wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
your innocence is all i have
breathing underwater, and living under glass
and if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
i believe in never, i believe in all the way
but belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith
and faith can't help you to escape
and with this ring i wed thee true
and with this ring i wed thee now
and with this ring i play so dead
but no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
to the revelations of fresh faced youth
no one will come to save you
so speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
but youth is wasted on the young
your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
my love for you just can't explain
why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
forever lost inside ourselves
the night has come to hold us young