ProblemChild

Is this even considered a life?
2003-02-23 23:48:46 (UTC)

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good....and then to have him look at me constantly probably
to see if i am staring at him but i wasnt!!! and i no i am
not imagining that he was looking at me and shit becuz
jessica said thats y she asked him if he liked me and other
people said he kept looking at me and it was annoying... and
i wish he would completely ignore me ..becuz when he came up
and asked me what was wrong with rachel and then hw skated
around and looked at me and i smiled i vould feel my heart
melt and it was than i knew i was still hooked and it just
makes me sad becuz like i have said b4 if i keep likign him
like i am now i am gonna start to hate him becuz its the
only way i can stop liking some1 when i like them ALOT and i
just dont want to hate him llike i do micah becuz i hate
that whenever i see micah i say shit like god i hate him or
he is so annoying or i wish he would ...leave...and its just
...i dont no i am sick of always liking guys and them
hating me and shit and me just driving myself crazy and
EVERYTHINHG I AM JUST SICK OF IT and he just would never
understand :( sarah and i r gonna work out again tomarrow
after school and i LOVE to just sit and imagine the punching
bag as my dad or janine or micah and just take my anger out
becuz it just feels good and i i i dont no i just want to
......i dont no what i want nemore...like the bitch at the
rink said..life isnt fair..and she is absolutly correct.. i
made to new friends tho this weekend and thats good...life
is confusing right now tho every1 is just so depressed and i
dont get to go to a beach this weekend and i just cant wait
for spring or SUMMER! i hope everything is good by then and
i am not worse than now but ye




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