Nasethray

Book of Dreams
2003-02-23 02:06:44 (UTC)

Blue and White

today is blue and white.
i woke up around eleven it was nice to regain some
rest........but i still have alot to recover, which i don't
plan to for a while......
i was eavesdropping on my mom's phone conversation and it
sounds like her old best friend and her son are coming down
here before march 24th....i'm supposed to pick out a theme
park for us to go to. What is a place that two fifty year
olds and a guy my age would go to? my mom is CHICKEN and
Sharon is..well..rich o_o;. i've never met Blake before i
don't think i'm gonna like him. i can almost smell
it....meep. i've been thinking about Derek alot
lately...........i'm drawing him two drawings..trying to
concentrate on doing them but it's hard...i almost have the
one done! but the other one i'm doing in pen and colouring
so it's taking longer..plus i don't have much attention
span when it comes to drawing and writing T_T. i'm sure
he'll understand, though...
morgan wants to get together tomorrow but i have homework
to do....and honestly i don't really want to see anyone
this weekend. i wanted to see Emma but she's always got
things to do...i wonder if she even likes me anymore? we've
been pretty quiet the past week...maybe there's something
wrong.?
i saw a movie on the civil war today. what's funny is that
i noticed they were repeating alot of scenes in the war
acts ;). my dad noticed too. why didn't they end the movie
when the general dude died?? i don't like saturdays, but
i'm so glad it's not sunday!
it rained today and the wind was blowing hard. i took a
walk with my umbrella around the lake ..it was so quiet and
serene. it was almost like sitting on the bathroom
floor....but to hear the sound of rain and nature's
sighs....is so beautiful.
there's nothing good on tv.
i wish i could concentrate more...i think i've gotten some
of Derek's add ^_^' i wish his life was better...
strangely, i have had people who i don't like in my head.
like jack and chelsey and lindsey....i remember back in
kindergarten..justin. and i remember andy du'fo! my
mysterioius little guy.....i wonder where he is now...
i'm remembering everything about my past...usually that's
a sign that a person's going to die soon...i hope i don't
die!!! =[. i felt like i was going to die walking
around the lake too......i felt like someone was watching
me from the bushes and following me when i turned my
back...but my gut instinct tends to be a little too
sensitive to things...i guess i was thinking too deeply ^_^
i'm kinda tired but i've got people talking
to me so i'm thinking i'll stay up longer ~_~. i tried FF7
yesterday but i don't have a memory card that isn't
stubborn! mer! i hope i never wish i'm dead again...!
sorry i didn't write in forever...
tell my hand-written diary that i'm sorry too T_T...
your friend, spirit/halo




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