Randi Lynn

Ungrateful
2003-02-22 02:12:30 (UTC)

Apparently Tina found someone..

Apparently Tina found someone else to be rooming with
instead of me. "Erin" Isnt that nice? *growls* Im feeling
negative and sick. Me and Tina were suposed to get an
apartment with each other when we turned 18. Now shes
getting an apartment with this Erin charactor this summer!
Agah. I feel ill. GOD DAMNIT. My mom got me a calling card
for valentines day and told me I could use it to call tina
but not to talk for the whole four hours, so I remember
that, and waiting for T to call me back, I remembered the
calling card. I picked it up, adn dialed, and my mom came
stomping down the stairs "RANDI!" (whirls around) "What?! Im
just useing the calling card to call tina!" "YOU BETTER NOT
BE MAKING A TOLL CALL ON MY PHONE!" "I just said Im useing
the calling card!" "THATS ONLY FOR EMERGENCYS" "No, you said
i can call tina with it just as long as I dont talk too
long" "Its for emergencys only!! You can talk for 10 minutes
then hang up" *growls* "fine...Tina, can you call me back?"
"yep". I feel so empty. T is my nickname for Tina. Earlier
convo with my mom: "Randi, are you unhappy?" "No" "Are you
happy?" "no" "are you depressed?" "no" "do you have any
emotions at all?" "no" "you're emotionless?' "yes" "Whats
wrong with you?" "nothing" end. of. convo. I guess it
stemmed because of when she said "Ohh the house is so clean
randi! it was nice of you to clean it!, wasent, david?" "You
made me clean it."
Then, she was on the phone with my nana. "Randi made
spahgetti for me and david for supper, isnt that sweet?"
"You made me!" "You know Randi, you keep saying I made you.
I do things for you without you even having to ask me, like
when I went and got you those nice shirts" "I never asked
you to" "exactly" me - *Sighs* I dont think she understands,
that if i dont ask her for something, I probably dont want
it. I hate the fact she gets things for me without asking.
She gets pissed if I dont like them. "i got out of my way-"
*rolls eyes* I guess im just what she always says I am. An
Ungrateful, Heartless, Selfish, Bitch. I think I have a new
name for my diary! wee! No one except her has ever called me
Ungreatful, but she's not the first to call me heartless. I
am ruthless sometimes, but its not many people who point it
out. I rarely pity anyone, but I do have compassion, except
for people I dislike. Like my mother, and the others that
have called me Heartless. Its not my fault I dont care when
someone dies, that It makes me HAPPY to know my brother is
being deployed, although im against the war. I Hate humans,
like I said earlier, except for a few exceptions, like Nate.
Animals I love. Im tired. I wanna go to bed, but im kind of
afraid my ghost will be there - although I kind of want him
to be.




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