LoVeLy ThOuGhTs

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2003-02-22 01:29:30 (UTC)

:*(

I just got of the phone with my best friend, who is on her
way 2 winterfest. Im so happy for her, her mans going 2 be
there, and she REALLY needed 2 see him again. She talks
about him ALL the time, which is kinda sweet. I get both
sides of it cause he talks about her 2..lol. I know that
they both feel the same about each other, which is kinda
cool, cause its not one of those one way relationship
things, that suck. I feel so glad for her, that she
actually has somethin' like that in her life. I just wish
that i had that. I have the guys, that i feel that way
about, but i dont think that they will ever feel that way
about me, cause i dont know, im me i guess. I just wanna
sit here and cry. I know that if i do then I am lettin
other people and things {like fuckin love} take over my
life. It hurts so bad. Then my friend is at winterfest,
with-out me, im not mad DONT GET ME WRONG. I am really
fuckin happy that she went, i was starting 2 wonder if she
was goin'. I just feel like im missin out on one of the
best things of my highschool years, a dance. Everyone
goes, its just like AHHHH! I wanna cry, but at the same
time im PISSED OFF cause #1 my mom dont pay child support
so that i could get a dress, #2 my dad has not had a job
for over a year. Its like DUDE your my parents, where the
fuck are you readin your parentin skills? I dont know, i
just dont wanna sit here, and feel sry for myself, but what
else can i do? Im going 2 watch kids tommorrow, so i will
have $$$ *[bling bling]* so i can go get drunk in a few
weekends..lol




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