FruitLo0p

t0 b0dfish...
2001-09-27 20:24:00 (UTC)

t0 b0dfish... 2- guys.

Ive met some pretty cool guys that I dont know just want a
piece of ass. Others make me wonder. And others I know are
looking for pie. b0dfish, there's this guy Tommy. He's
everything I'd ever want... except for being a complete
asshole. I dont know why I feel this way about him. Im
completely confused. Heres the deal- we started talking and
he asked me out. I said Id think about it. Then 'friends'
told me rumors and stupid shit about him that I really
didnt care about knowing. So I talked to him about it, and
I still dont know who was lying and who wasnt. Now he's
just an asshole. (ahem... and he's a junior) I told him he
was being an asshole the other day, and he walked away.
Then a few days later he came up and hugged me, I just
stood there. He's made me cry 3 times. 3 times, b0dfish.
Why? Please dont ask me because I dont know. No one made me
cry in Arlington, besides the twins and that was only
because Id missed them. Arlington. The word sounds like an
escape route from hell to heaven. Anyway.. there's also
this guy Zach (Soph) and at first I thought there was a
chance of us hooking up.. but then I found out about his
senior girl. Now that didnt make me cry, because the way I
feel about Zach is not near the way I feel about Tommy.
There's a party Saturday night at this dude Anthony's
house. Tommy will be there. So will everyone else in the
school. I dont know if I'll go. Brandon told me about it
today, and I might just show up w/ Amber Amanda Chris and
Jeremy. It sounds like fun anyway. I dont want to let Tommy
get in the way of my friends. I just hope I can stick up to
my ambition. Oh b0dfish, please dont let me fall in love.
Please dont. I cant handle it again. I believe that in
loving a person, you first have to let go of the love
before that. 2 years later, I have yet to let go of Aaron
Randall. I still dream about him, and the rest of
the 'crew' I miss the times. But other than that, b0dfish,
please dont let me fall again. Pick me up, please.




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