2001-09-27 19:56:53 (UTC)

a new attitude

I'm in a very negative mood right now and I thought I'd get it all
out. But then again I'm scared to because I don't want to upset
anyone. That's my problem, I want to please everyone even if it means
me being miserable. Now how the hell is that selfish? I don't
know, I'm just very lost and lonely right now. It's my five
month anniversary with my baby today. And despite what most
people would from the way I've been acting lately, I am
happy. I just find it hard to show it when he's so far
away. Like why should I smile when he can't see it? What's
the freakin point? Man, I got some issues...