I Was Hoping
recordando o dia21 de fevereiro de 2002...
acabaste com a cristiana.algo se passava contigo mas só eu reparara
estavas a chorar.
e eu saí da sala e sentei-me contigo no banco.
achavas que ela se tinha vindo a afastar de ti...e eu desviei o olhar
enquanto a defendia e te fazia ver que tu também erravas e que quando
2 pessoas se amam não podem deixar nada interferir nesse amor...e
disse também que acreditava que tudo ia ficar bem pois voces tinham
sido feitos um para o outro...sentia as lágrimas a surgirem enquanto
olhava para o chão e o coração estava em chamas por ter feito auqele
sacrificio tao doloroso...
e entao ficámos calados.
e tu disseste que eu tinha razão
e que ja tavas melhor e eu podia voltar para a aula...
olhei para ti,,e entao tu disseste algo que nunca mais esqueci..."é
preciso uma pessoa ser muito forte e boa para fazer o que tu acabas
de fazer..." e entao deste-me um beijo na cara e passaste a tua mão
ao de leve pelo meu rosto...e sorriste...
e eu fugi para dentro e só conseguia chorar...
as we were taking outside it was cold we were shivering yet
warmed by the subject matter
my wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you
know please don't tell her or anyone
but I need to talk to somebody
you said "wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was
five minutes before I died i'd be filled
with such regret before I took my last breath" and I
said "you're willing to tell me this now
and you're not going to die any time soon"
and I said I haven't been eating chicken or meat or
anything and you said yes
but you've been wearing leather and laughed and said we're
at the top of the food chain
and yes you're a fine woman and I cringed
I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together
we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's)
said "good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you're
successful and established sir and we like the frequency
with which you dine here sir
and your money" and when I walked by they said "thank you
too dear" I was all pigtails and cords
and there was a day when I would've said something
like "hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it"
I too once thought I was owed something
I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
I too once thought life was cruel
it's a cycle really you think i'm withdrawing and guilt
tripping you I think you're insensitive
and I don't feel heard and I said do you believe we are
fundamentally judgmental? fundamentally evil?
and you said yes I said I don't believe in revenge in right
or wrong good or bad you said
"well what about that man that I saw handcuffed in the
emergency room bleeding after beating his kid
and she threw a shoe at his head.
I think what he did was wrong and I would've had a hard
time feeling compassion for him"
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged.
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together