stupidhead

read this and die...
2003-02-18 00:37:50 (UTC)

stupid shit. bleh.

"ghosts."

this reality fuels my nightmares
my nightmares fuel this reality
i'll never be able to tell you
just how much you mean to me

the eye of hope looks down and blinks
now i'm thinking awful things
hoping that you'll notice
but would you care?
hard to tell...
would you laugh?
might as well...
i'm just another joke on your list of the crushed

so break my mind and lose my brain
theyve done nothing for me, ever
and i try so hard not to care
but i'm not getting any better
so stab my heart and crush my soul
time to set my spirit free
and i'll never get to tell you
just how much you mean to me

i just want to hold you close
but you want to be nowhere near
cant say that i can blame you
this was always my biggest fear
yet again i've lost another
the once it meant the most
maybe i'll give it all up
join the ranks of the ghosts

i'm a ghost to you
i'm just a ghost to you
this one time i felt right
this once, felt it was true
but i'm just a ghost to you
floating above the weeping tree
because of this, you'll never see
just how much you mean to me
ghosts can love too.
ghosts can care too.
ghosts can feel too.
i'm saying this to you.
if you will will never try
then you will never see
just how much it is
that you mean to me.


"wake up call."

so heres a wakeup call to myself
now i'm falling awake
break the silence, destroy the glass wall
before you pull away

can't you see
i'm struggling forward
but maybe i keep
pulling myself backward
i try my best
dont know what i'm doing
look for something here
but maybe its me i'm fooling
i want to hold you
close through the night
i think we could
and i think its right
but my self doubt
suspends me, midair
and i can't breathe
until i know you care

so heres a wakeup call to myself
i'm falling awake
grasp the moment, hold you in close
before you pull away

"no title. but it sucks anyways, yes? yes."

another time
another lie
another face
another dies
have i been here before?
must i see this again?
another chance
another glance
another day
another trance
i've tried all too hard,
just can't rewind life

oh, somethings are better left unsaid
i'm doing it all again, here i go again...

another moment lost
another chance i've missed
another time wasted
aren't we tired of this?
another day is dead
another week has died
my chances i've killed
can't even say i tried

oh, somethings are better left, unsaid
i'm doing it all again, here i go again...
oh, somethings are better left undone
why couldnt i tell you? its been all too fun...

and i realize
that these precious moments drip away
like the blood from mary's stone eyes
and then i lose myself


shjaghjsahsjdfklhjsaghasfljsdfhsdlgsafjasdjf

and you could scale that wall, escape to nowhere.....the
blood could shield you from their icy glare.




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