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2001-09-25 23:01:39 (UTC)

im such a whore

today was dull as usual and i just went to school and came
home. in gym christy was all like im so sorry about what
tom did to you. and she was saying that she was gonna say
something to him. but there is no use. i mean i dont love
him odviously but i like to have someone around and i was
comfortable. i wish i could just be a whore and no one
would care. but apparently there are problems with that. i
dont necessarily want to go around having sex with people
but i need affection at all times and i have a tendency to
want to please people. like for instance when i went out
with greg i would hate doing stuff to him bc i didnt care
what he thought of me. but the other night when i was with
tom, i wanted him to want me so i did stuff to him to make
him happy. but as much as i like the idea of him needing me
like that but when it comes down to it, guys dont liek
slutty girls but mabey he thinks it just happened. i dont
think he was grossed out by me bc i kno im good like that
bc we were really comfortable. but mabey i am wrong. i am
so confused bc i see no reason for him to not want me ne
more. ugh i wish i had a lot of guys at all times bc i need
a constant variety. so here are my current options:

1) if tom came to his sences soon i would go out with him
bc i really think he is nice an cute. also its a no
pressure situation. but thats not likey

2) i still could like jared-its possible. but he isnt the
type of guy that i need. he is really different and he isnt
the caring loving type of person. also he is in love with
his gf

3)i guess i could go back to greg but there is no
attraction there. he is an ok companion once in awhile but
everything he does and says pisses me off.

4) phil-phil is a tenth grader and he has really pretty
eyes but he is too shy and he is yoiung and i dont feel
like putting the effort into likeing him lol

omg i am such a loser its not funny. i dont kno why i
need guys. but for some reason i need physical affection
frequently and i need it now lol. i hate how u fool around
with a guy and then next few days u are so horny bc u r
thinking about it. with tom im not getting it ne more and i
need some more. i really am a slut arent i?


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