mEwAnTsAcOoKiE

cookies in my tummy
2003-02-16 05:42:03 (UTC)

matts bm

well today was the big day! blahblah's bm. well it wasnt so
big and it went by really fast. it started out pretty well
with me all excited about wat would happen with ross and
mer and then from there it just got worse and worse. well
you see first i was talking to ross and he told me that he
only liked marissa as a friend. i wanted to tell her but i
felt so bad cus she liked him so much and i know how it
feels to find out that someone who you really like only
likes you as a friend (well in my case, pretty much hates
you but more on that later)anyway after awhile of watching
allie flirt with ross and marissa stare at them i had to
tell her. and it wouldnt have been that bad just like the
whole me and matt thing wouldnt have been that bad except
for THEM. well i just cant believe this! THEY have started
to bug marissa! now after going through the horrors for
almost a whole scholl year the worst thing that could ever
happen would be that it would happen to my best friend. i
mean if you knew how many times i cryed myself to sleep at
night and wrote suicide notes you would know what i mean!
and to think that my best friend might have to go through
all that. 6th grade was seriously the worst year of my
life! i was just sitting in a chair watching marissa try
not to cry in front of everyone getting madder and madder
and madder. seriously i was going to blow up any second and
attack allie but i thought about it and its not really her.
i mean she used to be my best friend so i should now. its
just that her mind is molded very easily. anyway i really
really really hope that nothing like what happened to me
last year will happen to marissa. well i dont think it will
anyway cus at the end i saw them dancing and i could tell
that ross actually cared. like even if htey were only
friends he wouldnt let THEM do anything to her. hmmmmmm
sounds exactly like someone i used to know "dont wr clea.
we can look out for each other. no matter what happens ill
look out for you....." BULLSHIT U ASSHOLE yes there u have
it folks the last phone call ever received from mr. blah
blah blah no i am not going to say his fuckin name. well
obviously that phone call was full of shit. anyway now to
the worst part of the day. at the very end i was leaving
and i saw him sitting at a table with his cousin or
something. oh gosh i cant even talk about it. i went to say
bye and thank you and whatever and he was just so mean to
me and he made a joke about me to his cousin cus i heard
them laughing when i walked away. it was horrible. he hates
me so much and i dont no y. well at least his mom likes me.
Luv Ya Lots,
cookiegirl

eatin: who cares about food rite now
thinkin:sad that she has only one friend and that
blahblahblah is a meanie pooopie head and that she cant
understand y the fuckin hell she still likes him
wantin: this day to start over and blahblahblah to feel the
same way i do about him




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