ChunkyMunky2002

Ash
2003-02-16 00:05:21 (UTC)

The reason for the last entry

The reason for the last entry was because I was tired of
life.. tired of everything. Im just sick of every fucking
thing in this entire fucking world. I had about 3 or 4 of
my friends say i was being a bitch to them yesterday when i
didnt do anything... so now im a bitch on top of not having
the guy i love. You know what as for the guy I love. I give
up me and him are no longer and will never be any longer
and though I may always love him im not worried about what
to do with him cause we are never gonna be back together.
As for spring break I think I'll just tell him im busy so
that I dont have to see him and love him all over again. I
need help and i dont know who to go to get it. So what am I
supposed to do... I have no one who knows what to do about
this and I broke up with a perfectly good boyfriend cause i
was in love and refused to risk the chance of losing
something I never even had. So now what do i do? I give up
on the guy thats taking over my every emotion and all of my
time and Im gonna make myself to busy to think of him... Im
gonna tell my exboyfriend that it was stupid thing to do to
break up with him and I still do care about him... then
well see how Tyler feels when I do that. He wont give a
shit.. Did he ever? You know I went out to go clothes
shopping right before i got the e-mails.. I went ot get a
new outfit to wear when he came... so I can have a nice new
outfit for him... He wouldnt even give a shit anymore...
will he. God what did i do to myself and my life? Why did i
give up everything for him... well for once im moving on..
when i hang out with his best friends down here I wont
think of him anymore... its time to give up! so bye




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