PunchkidGirl

Muzik Is My World
2003-02-14 06:42:41 (UTC)

My exciting love life on Valentine's Day

I'm completely and utterly in love with this holiday! Ugh,
wait, lol, sorry...I was dreaming there for a second. I'm
not going to go on and on about how lonely I am and yada
yada yada, because really, I'm not. This holiday is just
kinda miserable because it makes me look back on all my
shitty relationships where I was treated like shit and
taken advantage of. I have yet to have a pleasant holiday
to be able to look back on. Especially New Years Eve where
I was stuck working, and I assumed I was in a decent
relationship, but it ended up where he kissed some chick
at midnight and didn't even call me to wish me a happy new
years, instead he was getting trashed off of his ass. Yeea
for me. Or even the guy that I spent a year and a half
with that didn't celebrate holidays because of a bad past
history, so when days like today came around, it was
basically a nightmare where he freaked out. Gawd forbid
the one time where I bought 2 dozen roses, candles,
expensive steak (his absolute favorite), clothes, and tons
of other stuff, and I snuck into his apartment, scattered
the roses around, and stuff, only to get a phone call
later when I was at home, and he wanted me to come down,
and embarrass and humiliate me in front of all his friends
that were sitting around us by yelling at me for a good
half an hour for doing such stupid shit. I honestly don't
think that there are any good/straight guys out there
anymore. Someone who has the qualities I look for in a
guy, such as a similar crazy sense of humor who can goof
around and not get angry and who loves to laugh. Oh well,
who ever said life was easy. But I couldn't possibly be
more thankful of the three absolutely amazing wonderful
friends I have now. The fact that they are a daily part of
my life makes me feel blessed. But with all my ranting and
raving above, I am just happy to know that these people
are in my life and I love them all to death. Thank you God
for bring them to me because I don't know how I went on
without them!




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