deadnut

ok

Ok I haven't written in awhile. Mostly because I have been
trying to process thoughts and feelings about the terrorism
as well as having been put on rit. Numbness gets me through
the day but it does not help me move forward.

There is I guess a great deal of things to be grateful
for. I can see some of them but most I find just out of my
reach. Nothing new really, have spent half my life that way.
Question is, how to open my eyes.

The things my brain decides to focus on are not good for
me either. So..brain...stop it!

Ok all I can focus on now is a rant and I think I will
post that as a separate thing. so ciao for now.