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One Particular Harbor
2003-02-11 23:12:01 (UTC)

I'm on my way ... I'm taking my time but I don't know where ...

Kathryn's journal entry got me thinking. Her question
about feeling like eveyone else has their life together &
you don't. I feel like that all the time. Basically, my
life consists of feeling like a five year old in an adult
world. I look around me and see all these people with
rational goals & it baffles me. I've never had rational
goals. I never will ... it keeps me reaching.

The more I thought about the question the more I realized
that I liked not having a rhyme or reason to my life. If I
had it all together, or knew what I was going to be, or
where I was going then that would truly be sad. The day I
know exactly where this journey is taking me is the day I
stop living. I am intrigued with the concept of living. I
am intoxicated by life.

Maybe it's just that part of me that will never grow up.
Or maybe it's that I refuse to let go of my child-like
wonder. I think there really is magic in this world. Kids
see it; adults don't. Adults can't see it, because they've
shut off that part of their soul.

I believe that a smile can make all the difference and that
music does make the world go round. I think you can have
roots & wings. Everybody needs sunshine to bask in & rain
to walk in. School isn't everything. In fact, school is
just a means to an end ... not an end itself. I don't let
school work overwhelm me because when I graduate from
college next year I want to be able to look back & a span
of time filled more with laughter, friends, road trips &
cappuccinos than with books, tests & stress.

Breathe ... Sing ...Dream ... LIVE!

Side Dish: I was driving home this weekend & saw all this
smoke. When I reached what was burning I realized that it
was some stupid company cutting down & burning trees. For
the first time, it pissed me off & I understood what
Tolkien was writing about. I wished that Treebeard did
exist & could stop it.

There is nothing man can build that will ever come close to
God's architecture.

Songs of the Entry: Big Yellow Taxi, Joni Mitchell
Creep, Radiohead

Cheers.




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