tousled

kleenex
2003-02-11 07:02:51 (UTC)

shit i'm sad

It's the eve of a public holiday and what am i doing
tonight? Uh watching an F4 concert. Shit i'm sad. And you
know what's sadder? I'm paying $149 to do this. At least
Can is buying the light sticks, or I'd have to press the
buttons on my phone and wave it around. Actually, i just
reread that line and I think my sadness has just sunk to
new lows. I'M WAVING A LIGHTSTICK. ugh next thing you know
I'll be wearing a banana yellow 37 degrees tshirt, with a
limp rebonded ponytail and bulging fats. And crying as Jerry
points within 20m in my general direction.
I want to go centro tonight, it's a Ministry of Sound dj.
never heard of him before but MOS is MOS. zouk's probably
gonna be better but I never really have fun there anymore.
It's like everytime I step in, it feels like there's
something really heavy hanging over the whole night. In
zouk I always have to be someone. And i don't even know
what kind of someone. The whole aura just reeks of acting
like we're all that, don't-even-think-of-coming-near-me
faces in place, aren't-i-so-damn-cool-i-know-a-MODELness.




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