Austin

Ramblings Of a 18 y/o Fag
2003-02-11 05:00:42 (UTC)

The Road To Recovery

I just went to look at my past entries and realized that i
fucked up the last two titles. Yesterday's was supposed
to
be "I Did IT" and the one before that was supposed to
be "My birthday prediction was nearly right"

Anyway...
So the pain in my ass (if you'll exuse the expression) is
muck better now. I have a "date" with "pete" on friday,
and
what with it being valentine's day and all, I'm sure he's
expecting more sex. That's fine, but I still need
recovery
time. He says that he scored some acid and that he wants
to do it with me on friday. I said that was fine with me,
which goes to show that I'm a pussy and don't know how to
say no to a guy that I like. Not that I don't want to do
acid, but I didn't even think about it before responding.
So that's the plan. I've been doing non-stop research
about anal sex, and how to make it feel tolerable, rather
than excruciating. I'm sort of excited about doing it
again, because it can only get better from here, and also,
I may like "Pete" more than I thought. However, I'm
absolutely not going to make this a relationship thing,
for
two reasons. Reason the first: I don't want to
smother "pete" if he's not looking for a serious
relationship. And reason the second: with my newfound
state of being, I think that I'll be far more confident in
asking other people out.
Well...
That about it.




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