Mindy aka Cutie
The life of a suicidal Teenager.
Want some cocktail tips? Try some drinks recipes over here
He's back in school
Alright, so Jon got back from Alternative school today and
is in regular school with me. He's such a mother fucking
asshole. The day started out ok I guess. Then at lunch I
was just tired of him looking at every other girl and then
saying that I wasn't showing him affection, earlier that
morning, and he wouldn't even hold my hand. So I was like
man, fuck you. He walked away and then wouldn't talk to
me. I ended up punching a wall and cutting why why why in
my wrists with a safty pin. Now I get to hide that from my
grandparents too. Then we "made-up". After school I asked
him a ? and he got all mad and started screaming at me and
cussing at me. Later he said he shows he's angry after the
incident happened and I just need to understand that. So,
we didn't talk for a while. When we get to my house, while
I'm slaving away at the stove, he says he hates fighting
and is soooo sorry. Ok, I totally don't understand you.
No matter what I do, I always "do something wrong" and, I
am so tired of being compared to everyother girl. I am
just as pretty. I really am pretty. I just have a low-
self esteem. And I am constantly thinking of ways to
better myself. I will look at every girl he does and think
what does she have that I don't? Oh well, one day either
he or someone else will appreciate me for me and only me.
Not what I look like, or whatever...but actually for me.