gummibear212

A new beginning
2003-02-10 19:40:54 (UTC)

Who really knows anyways...

Let's see it's been a while since i've updated. nothing
all that new has happened. haven't talked to mark in a
while. seeing mike at a lot of parties, and yes i'm still
out and about as normal. i've seemed to have picked up a
cold somewhere. (damn cold weather...) oh yes and it's
snowing once again in the lovely land of muncie.

but i actually talked to nik for a while. well i talked to
nik and his alcohol let's put it that way. we went to a
party together and he drinks much faster than i do so...
yeah i dunno he is talking about wanting to get back
together and things. i dunno....i miss him i really do but
i don't know if i'm quite ready to get back in to a
relationship with him. plus how do i know that things
won't be like they were before. and in all reality i
don't. that's a hard pill to swallow. but then again for
all i know he might really want to change and make things
work out again for the best and because of my stubborness i
would miss it. i don't really know what to do or what to
say to him. plus with what all is going on with his life
right now...i mean there never seems to be a dull moment
with his life. not that i would mind...if those moments
were happy...but they aren't. and thats not his fault i in
no way blame him for that, but in the same breath it makes
me think that maybe his life just isn't ready for another
relationship because it obviously wasn't ready the first
time him and i tried. who knows...




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