Mark

Honor Among Thieves
2003-02-10 12:51:43 (UTC)

Amurrica

ALright...I live in like the most culturaly diverse place
in the universe. On the island of Oahu our in Hawaii. Ok
remind me if I am wrong...this is on of the 50 states
right? I mean geez, no one here speaks english, and a lot
of the things you want to buy, you have to have yen, or
some other kind of crazy money, and the funniest part is
that you have to speak 3 different languages to be able to
get a job at McDonalds, and you still only get paid minimum
wage....you have to know english, some form of asian, and
pigeon....pigeon is a real language, it is what the
hawaiians use to talk.....shoots braddah, you wanna go down
and shoot da kine, wikkiwikki....blahblahblah.....it is the
most unintelligent language that I have ever heard in my
entire life....I swear to everything that is holy, that if
I live here long enough, and i start to talk like that, I
am going to shoot myself in the face....alright...enough of
that.........on to happier things....if anyone is reading
this...and is from hawaii...write me and let me know where
ya from.

I was reading some of these other online diary thingys, and
let me tell you, I cant believe that I was ever like
that..I mean I know what it is to be depressed and live my
life like I was in a shadow....I mean, never in a million
years did I think I was that bad, but now that i read some
of these other entries, I see just how bad I got...I mean I
know I thought about suicide and stuff, but I thought it
was normal, but now I think back over all of the stuff that
was making me think that...and im like....jeez, what was
wrong with me...didnt I know that life still carried on in
its funny little ways? at least now i know that life
doesnt end with a girl cheating or dumping me or whatever.
because most of the time those thoughts entered my head
because of a girl.....let me tell you, girls are the
greatest thing in the world, they can make you laugh and
cry, get sweet and mad all at the same time...tis pretty
amazing to me.

whoa, just got an email from a friend Tom that I havent
though of or heard from in about 2 years...I started to
curse him out because I thought he was someone else...dude,
how dumb am I? Man, the last time we talked was when he
kicked me out of his house like 2 or 3 january's
ago....man, he is divorced also, what a small world. This
has just been a very odd and different week for me. I hope
that it gets better...but it has to get worse before it
gets better...and this week, I will find out how bad it
gets. but however bad it gets...i still am a man, and i
still have tracy, and i still have buckets of pride, they
cant take any of that away from me...only my time, and my
money, but in 3 years...none of this will matter, and i
will be able to look back and laugh at all of this...which
i am sure i will laugh at it long before 3 years...i will
probably laugh at it 2 weeks from now./....sometimes i fear
that is all i do...laugh..well..not like a little school
girl, but i love to laugh at just little things i see or
hear, because they remind me of how much fun my life is.
you can ask anyone that i know...i have led the most
colorful life that they know...i have had so many jobs i
couldnt count them on my hands and feet, i have worked as a
waiter, as a delivery driver, as a guy down at Tampa
stadium selling programs, as a caddie, as a lawnmower, as a
computer networker, as a part time highschool baseball
coach, as a xerox copier technician, as a lead singer, as a
guitarist, as an amatuer bodyboarder, as a writer and poet,
a taxi driver, and many more..but now i am a sailor in the
navy, and out of all of those jobs, i hate this one th
most...yea i have seen most of the world and i have been
around it a few times..but let me tell you, there is
nothing better than going to a fast food joint, and having
the people speak english to you....yea i have seen some
cool things, like ayer's rock, and I have skydived over
Melbourne australia, I have seen the most beautiful sunrise
that i have ever seen in the world just 20 miles off of the
coast of Iraq. I have had friends die, and seen new
friends born. but when it boils right down to it..i am
totally 100% an east coast kind of guy, great music, great
food, great people, and a great drive....i swear i live on
an island that only takes 3 hours to drive and to come
right back to the same spot, and it only takes 3 hours if
you have to stop for gas, and take an hour to eat
lunch....i want to be able to get on I-75 and just drive
with the windows down, without having to stop for anything
other than gas and food, and just.......go. i think i
already wrote my little ramble about that...im not sure
though, but i probably did....but it is just what i want to
do more than anything in this world.




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