flutterwings

Wings With Love
2001-09-23 03:25:38 (UTC)

My Dear Sweet Rosie

This is not really a poem, but a dedication to something
many of you might think is so stupid. But
in my heart and soul it is not.

She came to me not by accident but by choice. I knew all
along that this decision I was making was wrong but didn't
listen to myself.

A little over one year ago a man that I loved very much
placed in my arms this little cream color kitten. I told
him "No I cannot take her." I told him I was not allowed
animals where I live. He told me, "But I can see it in your
eyes." He placed the little, helpless thing in my arms and
I was hooked.

I took her home. I called her Rosie. I tried to hide her
but everyone in the world knows that it is impossible to
hide a kitten. So she stayed with us. And yes I fell in
love with her. Along with my children. SHe became part of
my family. Even the man who is the love of my life now (by
the way the man who gave me the kitten is no longer in my
life) loves her very much. But he cannot take her either.
Circumstances beyond his control.

So I was notified that I need to find a home for her. And
today is the day that she is leaving. I wonder if she can
even sense what is going to happen. I hope the person I am
giving her to will love her and care for her as much as I
do. But I don't think anyone will ever love her like I do.

This was the dumbest thing I have ever done in my life. I
will never do this ever again. I have hurt not only myself
but everyone else involved in my life. Especially my
beloved Rosie.

Tears well inside of me. And my heart beats feverishly.
Last night was the last night she slept with me. I will
forever be so sorry for allowing myself to be persuaded
into doing something I should have never done.

The thing that really upsets me is that other people here
where I live have animals too (cats). And they don't get
told to get rid of them. I have always been told that I am
the gal who never does anything wrong. One mistake and of
course I am caught.

So with the end of this I will only say......"MY DEAREST
BELOVED ROSIE I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. YOU WILL LIVE INSIDE
THE LINING OF MY HEART WITH ALL MY PRECIOUS MEMORIES. AND
FOR THE TIME YOU WERE WITH ME I LOVED YOU SO. I AM SO SORRY
I HAVE TO LET YOU GO...I AM SO SORRY I HURT YOU...I NEVER
MEANT TO DO THAT. I WILL MISS THE SPECIAL FEELING I FELT
WHEN YOU LAID NEXT TO ME IN THE COMFORTS OF MY SOFT WARM
BED AT NIGHT. I WILL MISS THE WAY YOU CAME RUNNING DOWN THE
STAIRS WHEN STEVEN WOULD COME OVER EARLY IN THE MORNING. I
WILL MISS YOU WILL ALL MY HEART. I LOVE YOU BEYOND ALL THAT
THERE IS.

LOVE, MOMMY
2001-09-09
Comments
9-9-01...My love for you will never die. I am so sorry I
have to let you go. Note...please no negative
replies, just read my thoughts for I do know that I am
wrong.