sweetheart

sweetheart
2003-02-09 04:15:39 (UTC)

I am such a screw-up

I can't believe that I blew my chance with Ira... although,
who's to say I ever had a chance with him... maybe
everything he said was just because he knew that's what I
wanted to hear.... who knows???

I mean, I love this guy with all of my heart, and I let him
treat me like crap sometimes... what other girl would put
up with being told that she doesn't act her age??? What
other girl would still love a guy who shuts her out for 6
months.... I really don't know what to do... Half of me
says "get rid of him!!!" and the other half (and I must
confess, my louder half) says "don't give up on Fate."

I love him and I know he loves me, but the obstacles are a
little daunting, but I am a huge believer that love
conquers all. We have come through so much and we are
still connected. It has been almost three years, and there
is still no one else for me but him... I just wish he felt
the same way about me. I am pretty sure that I have lost
him for good this time, but I still hold out hope.... I
love him so much it hurts......




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