Worcs Of A Dangerus Mind
2003-02-09 00:59:27 (UTC)

Unhappyly Ever-After

as St. Augestien once said, "It is better to have loved and
lost, than to have never loved at all", while this might be
true i have to disagree. for if u have ever truely loved,
then u have never truely lost. for they will always be in
ur hurt, enableing then to be lost. i am saying this for
today i might have lost, or been lost. today i think i
lost lindsey agian. but this time it is all my fault. and i
can't say anything to defend myself. i really don't no what
i said exactly cause i was out of it. i was so scared of
loosing her idk what i said. idk what i heard or said. but
i no i screwed up. and lost my chance forever. idk if
lindsey loves me, but to a certain aspect it doesn't
matter. i lost her one way or the other. i lost my only
blessing from god. Nobody's perfect, untill you fall in
love with them. and lindsey to me is perfect. but idk how
she feels. i guess u can say that i am saying all this in
desperation for her forgive me, but u no what.. ur right. i
am willing to do anything just to talk to her about it, no
matter the outcome. cause there is way to many open ends
now. A love is an angel who lifts us off our feet when our
wings have trouble remembering how to fly. lindsey my wings
have forgotten teach me agian please? i can beg for days
and get no wheres, or be silent for an hour, and cure all.
William Shakespeare quoted "The course of true love never
did run smooth." god i agree w/ that man. i no i truely
love lindsey, and there has been so many bumps in the roads
of our relationship, but never yet a dead end, in one of my
1st diary entries i said something about true love, and
what all it means. i can say so much more haveing gone
threw so much more laitly. Love is when you take away the
feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship-and
find out you still care for that person. Love comes to
those who still hope although they've been disappointed-to
those who still believe although they've been betrayed,
need to love those who still love although they've been
hurt before. love has betrayed me manytimes, but it will
never go away. never tell urself u will never love agian,
cause u will, and it will hurt u twice as much. True love
is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have
seen. i no i am only 15. idc. u wont believe me. i loved
her. i love her. some say "no one ever knows there true
love at 15"... but y not so? if anyone tells u that u are
not in love, stop pretending. then that preson has never
truely loved himself. for if u have loved anyone, u no the
feeling. and u will not deny that feeling to anyone else.
Love remains a secret even when spoken, for only a true
lover truly knows that he is loved.
some may say love will always have a good ending, and if
it is not good, it isn;t the end. i couldn't disagree more.
True love doesn't have a happy ending: True love doesn't
have an ending.

Love feels no burden,
thinks nothing of trouble,
attempts what is above its strength,
pleads no excuse of impossibility...
It is therefore able to undertake all things,
and it completes many things,
and warrants them to take effect,
where he who does not love would faint and lie down.
Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.
Though weary, it is not tired;
though pressed, it is not straitened;
though alarmed, it is not confounded...

think about that and find out what all it means, for i
have. One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
That word is love. to be told i love u, to some can break
there hurts, and to others will bring new found joy into
there life. If I know what love is, it is because of you.
u were the one who enabled urself to love; everyone on this
earth loves. EVERYONE. true love isnt a funnie feeling in
ur stomach, that feeling is the fact that u want to be w/
that person for the rest of ur life.i'm 15, and it is 2003.
i will most likely live until i am 80. i no how long of a
life that is, but true love is never forgotten.
the bible says this: There is no fear in love; but perfect
love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that
feareth is not made perfect in love.
~1 John 4:18
the bible said that, the bible. meaning there has been love
since that 7th day god created this earth, and there will
be love until the very last day when god says thats enough.
We love because it's the only true adventure. nuthan in
this world will get ur heart beating faster than true love,
nuthan will scare u more than true love, nuthan will bring
excitement to u more than true love, and nuthan will hurt u
so bad to where you dont wanna live anymore, than true love.
i have to go now, but i suggest yall read every word in
this entry carefully, and be aware of what "i love u" means.

there is no song of the day today, for no song can express