pixze

Pixze Notes
2003-02-08 05:23:00 (UTC)

2/07/02

I always thought that when two people love each other and
are planning to get married they have become a team. I know
I am right. We are suppose to be on the same side and have
each others backs no matter what. It always feels like Nick
and I are fighting against each other though. I wish he
would stop trying to act like he has this defense that he
has to keep up when ever I try to talk to him about serious
stuff. For example he gets so mad at me if he asks me what
is wrong and I tell him nothing. Everytime I tell him what
is wrong though he either just gets really pissed or he
makes fun of me. Goes and tells his friends when I try to
be serious and confide in him. You stop wanting to try to
explain what is wrong after awhile. I grew up in a house
where you didnt talk about your feelings and when you did
they just got brushed away like unneccesary information. It
is very hard for me to tell my feelings and when I do it
isnt always a direct approach. I am just so tired and
exhausted these days. I am 19 with a 8 month old and due in
July again. I get tired easily I get migraines, and so
sometimes I need help you know. Its like I do everything
sometimes, I get soo overwhelmed.




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