b. tindle

this stuff is real
2003-02-08 01:54:01 (UTC)

dammit

ok well i jut kicked offline and i really dont feel like
taking the time to retype everything that i had so ill cut
to the shit.mary was supposed to call me today/tonight but
hasnt yet.it wouldnt be unlike her to call late tonight so
whatever but i would still like to talk to her but i would
even more so like to see her.i want to ask her out on v-day
but i just feel like i should be expecting a huge let
down.which hasnt been an unusal thing for me.but i still
will no matter what.jamie told me to hang in there but i
really just feel like im wasting my time with mary.i dont
like this sit and wait bullshit i want to know now if there
is anything there and the problem is i know there isnt.if
she said there was nothign there on the first "date" then
there most certainly wont be anything there after after a
date and a lunch so i dont know what to do.im lost and i
just want to crawl into a hole wake up and find the right
girl whoever it might be.i think jamie is right about the
whole v-day thing.it makes you want somebody more than you
usually do.you arent supposed to be alone on v-day it is
like not supposed to be.but unfortuneately this unlucky one
will be this v-day.i think i might be alone but i will be
lonely.




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