mag

the amazing adventures of me and me
2003-02-07 18:32:14 (UTC)

snow day

Its snowing so much today. absolutely beautiful. I
really took my time on my walk to work because my
neighborhood looks so pretty when the snow is covering the
sidewalks, trees and buildings. You cant see litter or
graffiti, just snow. And i love the sound of stepping on a
fresh patch of fallen snow--the little squeaks when the
flakes give and your shoe sinks in.

Of course by the time i walk home it will be a collection
of greyish-brown new york sludge. So im glad i appreciated
it while i could.

Anyway--- mark and i had a talk last night. The jist was
that i've been feeling more like his roommate than his
girlfriend. We've been together forever and the passion
just isnt what it used to be. We have definitely moved on
to the next stage of love....first is passion, then is
companionship. thats where we are. companionship. And
not to say that's a bad stage. we are definitely best
friends, getting along better than ever--we know eachother
more than ever. the problem is that we have really started
to fall into a routine. Come home from work, go through
the obligitory 'how was your day' conversations. Order
dinner. plop in front of the tv with a beer/glass of
wine. One of us works on the computer while the other
watches tv. In bed by 12. sex every-other night.

my god. except for the sex, we might as well be two
complete strangers living toghether. Its not as if we have
great conversation anymore--the kind where you are thinking
that the other person is completely in tune with your
innermost thoughts. And its not like we go out and do
couples things anymore....and if we do the PDA is minimal.

AHH i know the grass is always greener but i definitely
wish mark and i had met a little later in life. I feel
like ive been married for years... i wish i was just
falling in love with him now. it would be so nice

so thats where our conversation ended. he agreed with
everything i was saying...but of course took some of it
personally, which I DIDNT MEAN! i wasnt blaming him for
anything...just asking him to work with me to try and make
our relationship sparkle a bit more.

we're both going to try to break the routine-- let's see
how it goes.....




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