.:::RaMbLiNgS oF InSaNiTy:::.
2001-09-21 02:44:06 (UTC)

Why Is He Still Crying?...

Sometimes Jeff can piss me off so bad. Who the hell does he
think that he is to fuck around with me the way that he
does? He knew that this was going to happen. He knew that
we are only friends with benefits. So why the hell is he
crying now? I fucking swear. Sometimes that kid can be the
most stubborn little shit. Sometimes I want to tell him to
shutup because he's driving me insane. But I never do. I
never do. I just listen and I keep saying the same thing
over and over again. He already knew. He already knew.
Sometimes I need him more than anything I know of.
Sometimes I hate him with a fiery passion that burns and
burns and burns. I hate him now. I'll love him tomorrow.
What the fuck is going on? What the hell does he think that
he's doing? Why is it still raining? Why is it still
raining in my head?
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I need to scream. I need to
go insane. I need to cry. I need to be pitied. I need to be
left alone. I'm a walking contradiction. I'm just a walking
fucking contradiction. I want to renew the healing
scratches on my arms, but I can't. I need to see the blood,
but I can't. Can I still heal? Am I still healing? Can he
fucking hear me?
Can you hear me Jeff?
Can you? Well, can you?
Because I'm still bleeding in my head. You know what I am.
You know where you are. You knew what was coming. You knew
this. You saw this. I told you. I told you...
Why is he still crying?
Why is he still crying?
Why am I still crying?
Why do we still bleed?